Dear me,

                  Today, I didn't sleep at all, I stood up all night thinking about what are my true feelings, what is it about I want to do with my life, with my day to day life. 

I started thinking about how I started to have feelings for the person I think I'm in love of... and you know what? I just thought about how love sometimes can be eternal... but that doesn't mean that, that love is the love you felt before, sometimes when something breaks, you still have affection, respect and good memories that make you still believe in that love that has made you be attached to that person. Not always there are good endings, sometimes there are ends that need to be hasty, because love is not the love everyone thinks it is, sometimes love can be addicted, either in a good or a bad way, and that can either hurt you or make you a better person.
This doesn't mean, that whatever you have passed with the person you have been with is not real or even true, because when you are in love, you become crazy. Being in love, is what everyone says "I'm crazy about you". Being crazy for someone, for someones look, smile, laugh...

Loyalty

I always tried to base my thoughts on: 

1. own respect

2. loyalty 

3. effort

4. goals

Focusing on those 4 facts. I found out people are not always the way they say they are, sometimes they really lie to you and make you believe on things that are not true. But once you find out that, you can get better on whatever you want following your own steps. 

Having own respect, makes you a strong and centered person, since it determinates the way you believe on people that are not loyal to you or not, also, the strongness you put on looking forward and letting anyone or anything make you fall. 

Being loyal, just following the steps to not being a problem to anyone and not hurting someone, just because you think about you and not on how that person can be hurted.

 Be supportive,for no other reason than friendship.

 Don't talk behind your back.

Give your friend your HONEST opinion.

 Don't test your friends' loyalty - it will backfire.

Take time to look at the needs of your friends.

Balance your loyalties with one another.

Balance your loyalties with each day need of your own life and your family.

Practice random acts of loyalty.

Making efforts, the kind of efforts that make you be a capable person to take your own decisions.

Goals, focus on the main goal. 
 Decide what you really want to achieve.

 Be specific and realistic about what you want to achieve.

 Set a deadline for your goals.

Write out your goals.

 Make your plan of action.

 Execute your plan.

 Review your goals daily.

 Always stay focused and never give up (what my blog is about)

Good times.

I'm on that type of mood that I just want to listen to music, why?
The other day I read in blog, that when you have a problem or a thought if you keep thinking about it during a long time, and the thought is hurtful it makes it hurt even more, since you just think in the one thousand different possibilities about feeling guilty about it. If you think a small amount of your time on it, it will in some hours or time disappear the anxiety of the problem. Remember, EVERY PROBLEM HAS A SOLUTION. Even though sometimes is hard, and creates on you dependency on that problem, just hold on a second and look back and see how much you have constructed.

When someone has a feeling that makes people feel anxious, or sometimes angry because you may feel that things are not occuring the way you thought they where, just take a moment and think that life is not easy, even more your teenager life where you suffer about everything; your aspect, parents, teachers, school, boyfriend/girlfriend, parties, holidays, and some of the teens drugs and alcohol. 

That a good point I like to introduce since, I've been always a risk-taker, I committed the error of entering in the wrong type of life. Yes, drugs. I've been 2 years of my life smoking with a group of people that did so. 2 years of my life thinking much more in smoking a cigarette than going out with my true friends, or going to do some sport, or doing anything that would had been much more beneficial for me. Those 2 years of my life have been a disaster for me, just because I was not concentrated in school, I was paying much more attention to another type of problems, that nowadays I don't even care at all, because the biggest step in my life was just focusing in what was going to be a benefit for me and what not. I just need to thank the people that have been at my side, because they've seen me cry, and be anxious about smoking, as well as my behavior. Smoking cigarettes, is a drug. My life changed from going training 3 days each week water polo to be going around doing nothing smoking, just killing myself little by little and thinking that I had a productive time, when in reality, I was just wasting it. Thanks to the person that now is my life I opened my eyes, and I stopped having my addiction. He showed me how I was just watching life pass, while I was in a bench smoking, and not having fun. Now, this last year without smoking anything, I've been introduced to new sports, to new people, to a whole new society group role that make me happy everyday it passes. So remember, if someone cans, you can. It's just having your mind in another part, just believing that you can do it, and finding ways to forget about it, and seeing what is benefiting you. 

Those types that styles...

...Have you noticed that many of the bullying that is going around high schools in all the world, is because of someones style or way being.

I think we all life in a society in which everything we do is going to be criticized not only by our friends, but our surrounding, such as the internet. Nowadays teens post their pictures in places such as Facebook, twitter, instagram, snap-chat... and some people get to make people believe things that are not right.

This type of bullying that occurs behind a phone or a computer, is called cyber bullying and it makes teens be scared about everything because they do not feel comfortable with themselves because there is or there is not an anonymous person making a child feel depressed about their body, their face, their race, their being, and people should stop making people feel like that.

 I would not like feeling how my mom, dad, boyfriend, friend, or anyone being bullied because they are humans, and humans have feelings.

When everything goes left, go right.

          Once,  I remember I was feeling depressed because I had a bad day with my close friends and one of my closest friend came up to me and told me "Hey Inés, stop thinking about whay did you did wrong. Because if you believe you did not do anything wrong, don't start believing what does people want you to believe so that you go straight to them and tell them sorry por anything. And lil goofy (that's how she calls me) when things go left, turn right".

          Stop for a moment, isn't that right? Sometimes people come up to you with some strange problem about what should I do? What should I say? Well, if you are right, clearly not what they want to listen. You are the one affected by the problem, not the other individual. 

"Don't want to listen something that I don't believe I am"

                  How to turn right? Once the problem is just on top of you, just take a moment and think why that happened and why would you want to make the other person feel guilty of what he/she has done, and then when you think you are capable of talking seriously but calm, go for it, talk about the problem in a calmed way, trying to understand why that happened.

Weak weeks

HAVEN'T YOU EVER HAD DOES WEEKS IN WHICH YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW WHERE YOU ARE?

Those times in which you feel that you are taking decisions not by thinking about them, just taking one decision and seeing what happens, because you don't feel strength.

Once feeling weak, think why other days you are feeling strong. Is it your friendships? family? sport? academic achievements?

Once you have identified why you feel weak, think about what are you going to lose if you feel so weak that you don't even focus in what really matters in that moment, maybe: exams? quizzes? studying for any important subject? health? family? And just PUSH yourself up, and think that if you fall 1000 times, you can stand up 1001. 

Personally, when I feel weak, what I really do is go for a run, to feel that I'm strong, that physically I'm strong. And that 1 hour run, makes me feel strong, makes my negative thoughts fade away and try to have a positive attitude. Facing my problems in a positive way makes me feel secure of myself. 

Motivation as a goal.

What I've been doing over these few days without posting anything was, basically thinking about: What really motivates me? And I asked my self 3 questions: 

- How do I achieve my goals?

-When do I want to set my self a goal?

-By who I am pushed forward to go on and try it?

Sincerely, I was blocked out when I started thinking about that, because I'm not concerned about what is surrounding me everyday: friends, teachers, family, unknown people, society problems, economic problems, cultural problems... everything surrounding us make us not be concerned about what is happening and if what you really want to achieve is going to be possible or not. 

What I've been noticing is that people that you are important to are going to be there, everyday, pushing you to the next level, but that doesn't mean that you just don't need to do anything, the key words here are HARD WORK. With hard work you can achieve that level of self-esteem that makes you feel good and proud of yourself. But, it always happens... When you put all of your effort in something and then you feel that you have not achieved it on what you have been putting effort, hours, and hours on it, you have even lost "fun" time for that, because you where really thinking that is the time to show everyone what you are capable of doing, how does that feel? Yes, is tough isn't it? I'm sure everyone has felt like that before. Really under your own pressure. 

Let's be positive. We are human beings, we can commit an error, we can have really tough years because sometimes you don't feel capable of doing anything. 

I have always been a positive person, and wanted to see everything positively, trying to understand every type of situation someone believe he/she is in and trying to put my self in his/her position, and give them advice or a tip to get the problem away as soon as possible, or just being mentally strong and being sure of them selves. When really tough times come on to you, just make yourself some questions: What do I really want? What would I recommend a friend to do if he/she had the same problem? Do I want to solve this problem? Am I going to stop studying because it worries me? 

Am I going to stop studying because it worries me? That question is the one that you really need to think about, worrying too much and having that problem in your mind and does not let you study the way you should. Problems always have a solution. You can have 2 problems, the one you've got and the one you are creating to your self. Think about your future constantly, not in a 25 year future, but in the 2 years time future. And really focus that if an economic world wild crisis has a solution, a day-life problem has it too. Be secure of your self when you really want to solve a problem, to go ahead and say what you really think (but careful, with appropriate words and thinking two times before saying it).